In Midst Of Reading Week

well, now is around 3.11 am in the morning,
i am supposed to sleep early as i am sick
or i am supposed to study as i am having final now
yet what i am doing now
nothing as i do not have the feeling to do anything for now
i just want to lay back....
enjoying every moment of now...
the silent in the morning...

suddenly, i have a thought in mind
what i am doing now, as is where am i heading to in my future?
being honest, i do not...
basically, i am on the day by day basic..
doing what is necessary and get through everyday happily (try to do so)
is this good or not?

i am unhappy about certain stuffs
seems to me things like to happen at the wrong time
i did not the co-operation that i wanted either from
OSA for In-Fusion or
my committee member for society
well, guess is what I have to go through...
settling one by one is what i am doing

i just realize i have a phobia
the surrounding community of mine
have a bad habit
they tend to tease and create rumors for you
being honest, i am tired of this after going through this for about 3 semesters
yet, it would not stop
till i have to distance myself from everyone...who tend to be links with me
am i right in doing so?
i do not know
guess i am just avoiding the reality for now
i am just phobia with any rumors going around me

well, i must admit
i feel tired with everything surrounding me
my study, my cca, my life
i wish for a simple life now
but i know i can not have that
just have to bear through it
what else i could do, right...
guess it is time for me to sleep...
heavily not feeling well now, flu and cold...
damn you, you better go away tomorrow